Had I wanted to kill the pain

A thousand balms I could applyIMG_20160515_010901

Had I wanted to go to sleep

A million pills I could come by.



But what I wanted really was you

For what really gnawed at my heart was me

And so I knew a thousand healers could never heal, and set me free.



It’s a funny world we live in

Hypocritical, full of pain, and fearful

For it does know its real worth

And yet looks for smiths to confirm- or conform.



It taught me its values

And then it taught me how have they lost their value

It sent you to make me happy

And then confused me about who really took that away.



Relief was a dream far-off

For that wasn’t what I wanted

Not to let go of pain- but to live with it

Was what I was ever looking for ..