Had I wanted to kill the pain
A thousand balms I could apply
Had I wanted to go to sleep
A million pills I could come by.
But what I wanted really was you
For what really gnawed at my heart was me
And so I knew a thousand healers could never heal, and set me free.
It’s a funny world we live in
Hypocritical, full of pain, and fearful
For it does know its real worth
And yet looks for smiths to confirm- or conform.
It taught me its values
And then it taught me how have they lost their value
It sent you to make me happy
And then confused me about who really took that away.
Relief was a dream far-off
For that wasn’t what I wanted
Not to let go of pain- but to live with it
Was what I was ever looking for ..